Arch - i3-gaps doesnt boot with startx/xorg without reinstallation

Question

my i3-gaps doesn't start after reboot without me first doing yay -S i3-gaps everytime after reboot.

Using startx without doing this results in a black screen.

I also have some kbd desktop enviroment installed that launches without problems at reboot.

this is my .xinitrc

setxkbmap se xrdb -merge /.Xresources ~/.fehbg & exec i3

I don't see any problems and I don't know why me just reinstalling the package just solves it. It's irritating to do at every reboot since I dual boot and need OSX for some programs in school :'(

Any tips?