- Background
I'm sure there are very similar questions being asked. My situation is unique in that this sort of thing has happened to me before, but with significantly more malice. It seems one argument with a boyfriend and suddenly I lose access to my emails and my professional emails are getting ilicit emails from me to.
Ironically this recently happened. But of course these people are much more tech savvy than myself, and by the time I try to get round to proving it, I don't have enough evidence. It's gaslighting to the highest degree where SO MANY people think I am imagining it, that I question it. I take screenshots and they get replaced with uneventful ones from my computer stock.
Now I KNOW that there is a very sophisticated piece of spyware on my laptop in the hostel where I live. I managed to find its records and its "AI" going through different techniques when I made moves to cut it off from the internet. I am not having a good time at the moment - I can barely sleep, my father is dying, my family (because I was so upset that my privacy was invaded like this) think I just made it up cause I'm mad, despite showing them the evidence. Today is my birthday and I am alone, and I can barely use my computer without fear of someone else reading it.
I have reached out and it's done so well that I have been literally condescended and outcast, while my WORST FEAR ENTIRELY - my personal privacy and space is invdad to the highest degree. From what I can see, many of my documents were sent off before I Could even try to work out what was going on. I have diaries of my deepest secrets, feelings and most sensitive moments on here. I am currently using another account in hope vainly that I can spare myself some dignity.
I can understand suspicion and reasons for doing such a thing, but I think there were better ways of going about it, than making a vulnerable person feel more isolated. Literally this is tearing my apart.
Jesus I guess I wanted to vent but I am not exactly living the happiest situation. And I feel literally hopeless. Nobody believes me, I have no space or privacy. The most I get it condescension and "Well being a recovered drug addict that's what you get" - which is something I'm very proud of.
I tried to email the manager about it, but his nonchalant attitude and then edit to perfectly politeness was the same of everything. Honestly, I feel hopeless. I feel hollow. I found the T&Cs of the program and they declare "No damage" - but damage has DEFINITELY been done emotionally, physically, and socially. Not to mention my own screenshots swapped. But who will believe me? Not even my mother does. And my 25th today will be spent alone.
Any advice you can give would be appreciated?
Here is the ImGur of various bizarre things. As I posted I was fixing together, before it got put on hold...
Tbh I didn't expect much help due to societal judgement of people in my poition. So I'm not surprised it got shut down in the short time I put together the imgur. The level of sheer intolerance and snark wasn't very welcoming. Nevermind - suit yourselves. You know, I'm not uneducated and stupid - I know how to formulate a query, I'm just stressed.